=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = F.U.C.K. - Fucked Up College Kids - Born Jan. 24th, 1993 - F.U.C.K. = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= smart thinking -------------- There's a little Voice, deep inside your head, that you know very well. It tells you little things - like when not to cross the street even though you should have enough time on the walk signal to make it across. It tells you big things, like when to say no to that nice enough guy who keeps asking you out on a date. It's just that feeling, that intuition, that tells you what is right and wrong for every nanosecond of your existence. When you ignore it, shitty things happen. Sometimes the shit isn't so deep. Once, when I was waiting to get on a plane to NY, an announcement burst over the PA. USAir was offering cheaper rates to anyone who was willing to wait for the next flight. My gut told me "take it." My family disagreed. We spent the next few hours on the worst flight of our lives, tossed around wildly in a thunderstorm. People were screaming. My mother was worrying that she had forgotten to sign their will. It was that bad. But all that really happened was that we were scared. I wish I had listened to the Voice, though. Now it takes heavy drugs and minor amounts of alcohol to even get me to consider getting on an airplane. Live and learn, right? Sometimes the shit is deeper. Two times in my life I have been in love - real love, not little puppy dog crap. In both cases, I was really too young to do the right things and make a happy ending. In both cases, I was given an opportunity to try again, with more experience and less bullshit. But my voice kept telling me that it simply would not work, that I would end up getting hurt somehow. Blindly I ignored my gut and rambled on, trying desperately to recapture what I had lost through my own stupidity and childishness, thinking that I could do it over, and better this time. As always, the Voice was right. It knew before I did that I was being stupid. In both cases, of course, I ended up getting cut. Deep. Now I know. In matters of love, listen to the Voice. Smart thinking is listening to your Voice. Whether that means going to one college instead of another, taking a different route home, or moving to California instead of New York, ultimately, your Voice helps you make decisions about your life that might mean the difference between happiness and despair. Alone as we all are, we have our inner selves that speak to and through us. If you pay attention, you might learn something about loving yourself, and doing the right thing, no matter how annoying or terrifying that path might be. I know I'll ignore the Voice, off and on. We all do. And every time I'll look back, and remember that it was there, and know that I should have listened. Maybe getting older and wiser means nothing more than having a louder Voice. I just wish mine would scream instead of whisper. demonika =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = Questions, Comments, Bitches, Ideas, Rants, Death Threats, Submissions = = Mail: jericho@dimensional.com (Mail is welcomed) = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = To receive new issues through mail, mail jericho@dimensional.com with = = "subscribe fuck". If you do not have FTP access and would like back = = issues, send a list of any missing issues and they will be mailed. = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = AnonFTP FTP.DIMENSIONAL.COM/users/jericho/FUCK = = FTP.SEKURITY.ORG/pub/zines/fucked.up.college.kids = = FTP.DTO.NET /pub/zines/fuck = = FTP.ETEXT.ORG/pub/Zines/FUCK = = WWW *** http://www.sekurity.org/~fuck *** = = http://www.dimensional.com/~jericho = = http://www.reps.net/~krypt/fuck.html = = http://www.simunye.com/fuck = = http://www.dis.org/se7en/fuck = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = (c) Copyright. All files copyright by the original author. = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=