$$$$$$$$$$$ $$$$$$$$$$$ hogz of entropy #203 $$$$$P $$$$ $$$$ moo, oink, up your butt. $$$$P $$$$ x$$$$ $$$P $$$$ xP$$$$ d$$$$$$$$$$$. $$$. $$$$xP $$$$ $$$$$$' >$$$$ $$$$$$$$$. $$$$P $$$$ 4$$$$$. .$$$$' $$$$'`4$$$b. $$$$ $$$$ 4$$$$$$$$$P' $$$$b 4$$$$b. $$$$$$$$$$$ 4$$$< %% $$$$$b 4$$$$$x $$$$$$$$$$$ 4$$$$$$$$$ %% >> "No Sleep" << by -> Neko ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Mon, 9 Feb 1998 01:54:49 -0600 (CST) From: john heisel To: ?@?.? Subject: no sleep sleep no sleep sleep no ndsgfksghewu7ir7gegguiggf yes i want to sleep sleep sleep chirp like a bird this makes so much sense right now and last night was not just a dream it really happened in perfection it was good and like we just went and flowed naturally and everything everything was there and nothing was not and so so good and you're thinking something that isn't true because of my vague wording and i am misleading you almost purposefully because i am too tired to write evrything out and now i guess it was two nights ago because it's now monday and advancing quickly quickly and saturday is the past a mere emory that i will remember indefinitely i hope sitting in the park after dark way way after dark when it's cold and we're not ready for the cold and just sitting sitting sitting in the park after dark and the light is buzzing and annoying and then poof it goes out and all is well and my arm is around her and she cuddles to me and not a word is spoken because it is not needed we both know and it's almost sad when you're young precisely because you don't know what you think you do know and what the hell i am 17 years old and i will be 18 in april but what will that change not a damn thing i bet i will be older and wiser they say and i can buy cigarettes lottery tickets and porn but oh well what the fuck like i couldn't buy them now 21 is the age to be because then oh then i will be where i want to be is now forever will it last more than just a fleeting moment and why the fuck didn't i take off my work clothes when i came home because now i'm wondering and oh well i stopped wearing a tie to work and i just wear the sweatshirt and no one is the wiser elite elite what a treat life is good we talked for two hours tonight and that was after random work encounters there is something really there i know i know i should've said what i really wanted to tonight that i wanted to reach through the phone and hug her we've been through so much it seems but you know what this is nothing this is shit we don't know hardship from the back of our hand we're rich white people who've had advantage rain down upon us all our life but our problems seem so big don't they don't they we know that we'll be alive tomorrow and some people don't they fucking don't and should we even care shit i am tired and i haven't done this for awhile and i don't know why why why but it makes so much sense --john heisel http://www.dto.net/~neko/ rockford sucks zine |-| p.o. box 7172 |-| rockford, il 61126-7172 |-| usa issue 2 out now with hum interview -- send $2 for a copy! ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- * (c) HoE publications. HoE #203 -- written by Neko -- 3/06/98 *