[--------------------------------------------------------------------------] ooooo ooooo .oooooo. oooooooooooo HOE E'ZINE RELEASE #764 `888' `888' d8P' `Y8b `888' `8 888 888 888 888 888 "Something Stupid" 888ooooo888 888 888 888oooo8 888 888 888 888 888 " by iNSaNe_GuRL 888 888 `88b d88' 888 o 7/28/99 o888o o888o `Y8bood8P' o888ooooood8 [--------------------------------------------------------------------------] I'm not smart and i'm not witty i'm not even funny sometimes i can be twisted but that hurts so i try to avoid it. I'm 18 which is an in between age i don't know how to be an adult cause i'm not smart. i was the youngest child in a family of 6 til my parents had more children. But lets not think about that parents can't have children unless they're sprayed with some kind of spores that induce childrenism or something like that parents don't have sex. We all know that. So anyway back to me. No one really cares do they? ...if i'm not funny i know i'm not and i already specified so it's not really misleading. So i'm 18 i can be repetitive sometimes. i chat on IRC so that explains why i can't syntax sentences properly sometimes. I'm not clever like people who write for this thingy. I'm boring yeah... i figure if i tell everyone whats wrong with me they'll say hey.. okai at least she's honest. i feel dead today but i know i'm not coz my fingers are moving. I could be a robot. A cyborge i something really big and long and complicated. But i'm not. I do read here's a quote to prove that i read: "....Now I'd like you to step forward over here. They're not that different from you, are they? Same haircuts. Full of hormones, just like you. Invincible, just like you feel. The world is their oyster. They believe they're destined for great things, just like many of you, their eyes are full of hope, just like you. Did they wait until it was too late to make from their lives even one iota of what they were capable? Because, you see gentlemen, these boys are now fertilizing daffodils. But if you listen real close, you can hear them whisper their legacy to you. Go on, lean in. Listen, you hear it? --- Carpe --- hear it? --- Carpe, carpe diem, seize the day boys, make your lives extraordinary...." That's from Dead Poets Society. Robin williams said it. It was movie. But i read it on the net so i copied and pasted it. i thought a carpe was a fish. Something's wrong with me today. I think i woke up stupid either that or i was born that way. I can't remember.. being born that is. So anyway... this guy told me to write for this. i was attracted to him. But now i'm not cause u know... yeah that. He doesn't talk to me. I think superiority is attractive. he's clever i'm not... i like him. i'm attracted to a lot of people. Specially smart ones. Sometimes i don't understand them But that's okay because i'm often misunderstood too so we have things in common. But yeah.. i stopped being attracted because i don't like being inferior. It makes me feel stupid. Which isn't nice because i'm not that smart to begin with. I put myself down a lot. I think it's just my mood. I didn't want to write for this.. because i'm not funny and i need people to like me but a lot of the times the just give me donuts. There's this girl at my Uni who just looks at me. I think it's because she doesn't understand me. Or she's gay. But once i offered her a chip and she took one. I was happy she liked me. Maybe she just liked the chip. Or she was hungry so then... i forgot what i was saying i think i'll start over now [--------------------------------------------------------------------------] [ (c) !LA HOE REVOLUCION PRESS! HOE #764-WRITTEN BY: INSANE_GURL - 7/28/99 ]