THE LIBERTY TREE PUB AND GRILLE by D. M. Hanna I know a place where the steaks are aged green with envy and the cook boils the potatoes in pure, salted butter. Not only that, both the whiskey and the beer are specialties of the house, served in generous steins, and sold at '76 prices. The clients of this establishment are wondrously uninhibited in their talk and song, and will encourage you to join their throng for some of both. Perhaps it sounds too amazing to be true, but you have my word on it; this place actually exists, and they call it the Liberty Tree Pub and Grille. The storefront doesn't look like a meetinghouse from the street, largely because there is no posted sign to draw the attention of passers-by. I am told an over zealous patron so dearly loved the place that he removed its placard a very long time ago and hid it in the atticroom. The regulars were unaware of this fact until his last will and testament was found, where they read of the deception and learned of his last request. Feeling duty bound that his last wish be indulged, they fashioned the lid of his coffin with that very board. Imagine! This lovely old sot requested that he face that weather worn old plank and its faded pigments into eternity! (Some believe that to be his penitence for a selfish act, but others consider it to have been his way of remaining near the glorious old tavern and friends. And a very few others wish they had thought of it first, and toast his memory quite often.) Of course, they insist that the story is true, and have even offered to accompany me to the graveyard to exhume his plot, that I may add my initials to the lid and share witness. They tell me that it isn't necessary to dig the old coot up, but only to expose the top side of his box, as the sign was painted in the same fashion on both its sides. I have not yet consented to visiting the grave, but I, none-the-less, have faith in their account and believe them all to be trustworthy of their vouch. This and many other subjects are raised for discussion in that dear place, and I openly admit a growing fondness for its spirit and those who frequent there. Most of them have nearly taken up residence behind its seasoned oak doors, and even receive mail through its auspices almost daily. More than mere persons or acquaintances, these who welcome the newcomer with plenteous platters of hearty food, a bottomless mug, and an over-flowing passion for good talk and randy song have counted me as their friend, and have sworn me to their one and only rule: that admission into those rooms is by invitation only, and that such inclusion be for life. Keeping of this regulation is no hardship for me, as I have taken them all to my heart and cannot betray the spirit which abides there. Do not become downhearted, or regret reading this account with envy or longing. When I tell you of my own invitation to sup and song, you may well appreciate the whole of this experience and be better prepared to answer the call when that turn is yours. Know this also: what I tell you here is not a breech of privacy, or a treacherous act. These friends of mine are a patriotic bunch, and they do not fear the common man's approach, nor the tyranny of various human governments. As you continue to interpret the words written here, you will develop an understanding of the pub's immunity to such trivial matters, and you may well desire its protections all the more! * * * My own inclusion began in this way: Nearly a full week's weather had remained so hot and muggy that a sane man could not find rest from its torment by night or day. I tell you honestly, that the daylight seared the early summer lawns brown despite the village gardener's best efforts, and the people's crops wilted for want of relief. Even in the darkness of middle night, the unbearable heat hung on like the breath of an iron forge freshly stoked. Day after blinding day and night after torturous night, the damning weather refused to give way to a cooler climate. Four cycles of this damnation caused my spouse and I to raise voices and utter foul words at one another -- just one too many times -- and I took my leave of home. Though the evening hour was late, I hoped to return some time later and avoid the bed, so as to escape a repeat of the scene. So out into the night I strode, like a proud cock with ruffled feathers and spurs sharpened for battle. Mind you, I was not looking to brawl, or locate another confrontation with anyone; I simply was of no mood to be targeted or succumb to a like challenge. After some good many pavements had been sufficiently scuffed by my boots and my ire had been spent, the heat of the night reminded me that argument parches the throat, and I began searching for a parlor in which to quench my thirst. Much to my dismay, most all of them were closed at such a late hour, or not a welcome place for the likes of me. (Those of you who visit bars know that, though you may be served, you may not be welcome. The experience of straying into a closed fellowship can sour the palate and make the best of liquors far from satisfying.) Feeling quite dejected in my quest, I happened upon a public fountain which gushed up a ready stream of luke-warm water when I applied the tap. Though it was little compensation to my intent, I sipped enough to rinse and swallow, then cupped a small amount in one hand and splashed it in my face. And it was while I stood there, with water dripping from my face, that I was approached by the deliberate stranger in black cloak and hat. "I find that spring to be too brackish," he said, offering his handkerchief; "and you would look to be a man, who finds no pleasure from such a meager refreshment." "Thank you," I said, handing back the dampened cloth to its owner. "I admit, I found short comfort from the fount, but one does with what one finds." "Then your coming here was not an expressed intent, I take it," he muttered strolling away. Without hesitation, I walked beside him and matched his pace. "The truth be known, I was in search of stronger drink before I happened there. Unfortunate to my wants, I found no roadhouse to be open for me at this hour, so I accepted what was available." Stopping under the next streetlamp, he turned and looked me full in the face, and I found his to be an appearance both cheerful and fatherly. "Are you sated, or would you require a stronger libation?" Here it was then: a solicitation from a gent altogether strange to me. A blend of fortune and fear washed over me while the chancer inside decided my fate. Being human presents us with these conflicting prompts so often that we should expect them, but it remains that we rarely do. Even when we may anticipate, or even secretly wish an invitation, committing to action can sicken the stomach. Distrusting others more often means we suspect our own intentions, and all of us would find a better world for mankind if confidence were tender, rather than a game. "The stronger the better," I replied with a sheepish grin. "Splendid!" he returned, heartily clapping my shoulder. "I promise you a great recompense for your faith, my friend. Come with me, and I promise you a good stay." Walking together a number of streets and alleys, we exchanged common names and comments about the recent weather, but nothing more. When at last we stopped just outside the storefront, it appeared to be abandoned and as silent as a pauper's grave. Fishing a key from his pocket, the man presented it to my attention much as a conjurer displays a coin prior to its disappearance. Without a word, he applied it to the doors lock, pulled it out again, and pushed the door open bidding me to enter before him. A better illusion I defy the best parlor magician to produce. Once inside the establishment, it was plain to see that the premises were far from deserted. For here were people engaged in a flurry of activities and imbibing in all manners of spirit. As we threaded our way through the room, I found myself glancing from face to face of people who seemed strangely familiar . Most of the patrons took no notice of us as my companion led me to a table in the back, and bid me to sit there while he spoke to the bartender. Sitting in the back of that room gave me a voyeurous vantage point of my surroundings, and I tried very hard to take it all in. Among those in attendance, only a very few were, it seemed, in quiet contemplation, and I noticed that their solitude was uninterrupted by the others. Those others were engaged in conversations ranging from subdued to raucous, playing games of chance and skill, or involved in entertainments that I could not well make out. One group in particular had enjoined a certain patron to accompany their song with music from a piano near the bar. Though I did not recognize the composition or recognize the lyrics, I found their spirituous rendering lent to the animation of the place. Before my associate returned with two sloshing mugs of frothy brew, I had surrendered myself over to the collective atmosphere of the Liberty Tree, and was glad for the experience. "Now then, my friend, a toast," he said, setting a stein before me and sitting himself at the table. "To our little vessel plying this sea of uncertainty; may your joining bring new wind to its sails, and bring our friendship safely to port." With smiles and a clink of cups, we sealed the thought and both drew long quaffs of the cold, dark contents. Much to my pleasure, I regarded the quality of that lager to be, perhaps, the best I have ever sampled. Unlike the bottled varieties commonly consumed, this brew contained an exceptional blend of barley and hops well malted, and a hint of oak. "Again, I find myself thanking you, Ben. For both the brew and the view." "The pleasure is mine, William." "A pleasure shared," I muttered after another sip. Quickly glancing around the room then back to my host I added, "This place is charming! I can't recall ever encountering quite the same atmosphere in a pub before." "So tell me Wil," he began; and while carefully rebalancing the bifocals on his nose, "how is it that you took to wandering the streets this night? Have you not a home?" "Oh, I'm not homeless, Ben," I stammered. "I was looking for a bar that would serve me." "So you say," he whispered, leaning in close. "But is that all you were searching for?" A blush colored my cheeks and brought be sudden discomfort, before I replied, "I guess not." Ben sat back in his chair and eyed me closely, obviously yielding the forum to my use. A true introvert would have found the pause painful, but the talker foolishly takes center stage when invited. "The wife and I were disputing just before I left," I mumbled ashamedly. "For the life of me, I can't clearly remember how it began." "Do not be downhearted, Wil; that same thing happens to many each and every day," he replied in a soothing tone. "The beginnings of marital spats rarely matter. It's quite likely that a little thing disturbed you, and she reacted, as she thought best." "I didn't start it!" I shot back curtly, "I was miserable for the heat, and she could see it plainly!" Ben sat there quietly and waited for the realization to hit me. Just as he had said, she had known my distress and prompted me to `cool off,' as it were. A long, awkward moment passed while my embarrassment played out and I collected my wits. Before I continued, I finished off the last dregs of my beer. "Please excuse my outburst," I said sheepishly, "I apologize for not presenting myself in a good light." "No apologies are necessary," he chuckled, gently patting my arm. "I understand these things -- are you ready for another?" Realizing he meant another beer, I quickly offered to buy a round. "Your money is no good in here," he replied matter-of-factly, while signaling a barmaid with a wink and a nod. "I dare say, it is of questionable value outside these doors." As she threaded her way through the room, Ben once again leaned in close and said in confidential tones, "This dear lass' name is Eva, and I warn you now to not avoid her advances." An unintelligent blurt of, "What?" passed my lips before he quipped, "Listen and learn." Once at the table, she quickly set the tray on its top and plopped down in Ben's lap, wrapping her thin, freckled arms around his neck. "You nasty old man," she said with a grin. "How is it that your master turned loose your leash this night?" (All the while, I could not help but notice that his hand had strayed to cup the breast of her frock, and that her right hand now reached to his lap under the table.) "Never you mind girl," he chortled, turning her to face me. "I have the pleasure of introducing you to William, a newcomer in the home. William, I present to you the saucy wench of the Tree, Missy Eva." In an instant, she was out of his lap and into mine. (In much the same way as with Ben; in interest of modesty, dear reader, I will not elaborate further on the matter.) Finding myself in such an intimate position, I fought down the urge to react adversely and caressed her posterior in exchange. "And who's pet are you?" she giggled, leaning in deliciously close and cooing. "Give us a kiss." I implore the reader to understand that it is not my practice, nor my intent, to seek out the affections of women other than my wife. But when confronted by the likes of Eva, this beautiful and vibrant soul, I admit to succumbing to that private urge every man secretly holds, and letting that thought power my greeting. Thereafter, she remained in my lap and leaned on the tabletop with her elbows. The scent of her lilac perfume filled the air around me, and the taste of her mint flavored mouth danced on my tongue. Addressing my companion, she said, "Would you do us a favor old man? Had you noticed poor Jack over there, starring glumly in his beer? Mind you, now, I welcomed him this evening, but I think the misses and he have been at it again. Would you be a dear and draw him into your company?" "I'll do what I can," Ben said sincerely with a wink and a smile. "You just tell the old bastard to come meet Wil, or he and his foul funk will be out on the street." Like a shot, she popped out of my lap, kissed him affectionately, and deposited the pitcher of beer on the table. "You're a dear old fart," she chirped at him, then turned to me. "Sweet William, are you hungry? I can cook for you, and it would be a pleasure," she said with a wink. Raising the pitcher to pour, I told her no thank you, and she went to replenishing our mugs, with Ben's being filled first. Much as her approach, her leave was -- well . . . an event. "Well done," Ben muttered with a sly grin. "Though she presents herself much as a bawdy streetwalker, you'll come to know that it's just her nature. Many a man has thought that her advances were leading upstairs, but she has yet to slake that thirst in any man I know." "I met her sister-in-kind in my school years," I mused while setting down the pitcher and taking up my stein. With brief description, I told Ben about Lynne, and how I relished her sweet kisses and caresses in the privacy of the cloakroom so many years ago. Speaking of her was like composing a sonnet, and old Ben listened intently as I rambled on. When at last I returned from my indulgence, I found that our number had increased by not one, but two, and felt chagrin for my lapse in control. "*She* is a wonder," said the first, offering me his hand to shake. "I'm James to the collectors, and Jim to friends. Though I was not formally invited to join you, I hope you'll accept my company." His handshake was intriguing, and showed the influence of a `brotherhood'. Still, he made no covert signal to the others at my fumbling response at its finish, so I felt well received. Quickly I gave him my name and turned my attention back to Ben. "And this sullen old shit is John, called Jack. Jack! Show your better nature and welcome Wil to our fold." A hasty glance, the flash of a smile, and a mumbled, "Howd-a-do," was all the offer he made before returning to the depths of his mug. "What was it this time, friend Jack," muttered Jim, putting his arm around John's shoulders, "insult or assault?" John turned and glared (and I think he may have growled), and Jim pulled his arm back in mock defense. "Come now, Jacko," chuckled Ben, "you abuse the privilege of the house when courting a mood like this. Remember Richard's blunder in these hallowed halls? I doubt you are ready to turn in your key." Then he leaned in close and whispered something that I couldn't make out, but I'm sure John did. Because suddenly -- without a word in return -- John was up out of his chair and heading for the door. When he went out it, both Jim and Ben were laughing, and I was alone in my confusion. I'm sure it showed, because Ben looked at me as if to say `boo' then spoke in a loud, boisterous tone. "Curious of my advice to him concerning the wife, my man? For if you are, I can give you much the same." "Ask him . . . Willie, ask him!" urged Jim with a devil's gleam in his eyes. "There can be no doubt that he's right, and old John knows it! Truly, Wil, Ben's known more ladyfriends than any ten men you'll know, and that's because he knows a surefire truth in dealings of we two breeds." Hesitating to ask, made the table's silence near unbearable for me, as it was obvious that these two wanted so desperately to let the cat out of the bag. I'm sure they would have remained near bursting their shirt buttons waiting for curiosity to gut me, an so, to release the tension, I asked. "Go home and apologize," was all Ben answered in a proud, sure voice. Jim burst into laughter and fell to the floor. "I don't get it," I whined in return. "I don't understand any of it! That's all you said? `Go home and apologize?' It doesn't make any sense! That poor man storms out, mad as blazes at that? And you're proud? And you!" I called to Jim, who was just now pulling himself back up from below and laughing just a trifle less. "What's so funny? I am sorry, gentlemen, but I fail to see the humor, or the pride to be had, OR the value of the so called *advice*!" And now I found them both laughing at me, (at ME); and I felt confusion laced with frustration fill-out to ire intent -- towards them both! Included out and vexed, I teetered on the verge of walking out myself! "Calm down now, William, and open your mind! Surely you cannot think we to be sadists at your or Jack's expense! Drink up!" he called, as Jim replenished my mug, then Ben's and his own. "You're young, just as was Jim when he first heard the same sad song from me, and if he could keep from laughing, I'm sure he'd tell you the same explanation. Drink- up, and I will make you understand." Before he continued, the mood of our table became quite secure, as if he were about to impart some sacred wisdom to the initiates. In retrospect, I imagine it was Jim's abrupt sobriety which caused me to relax enough to listen. "Now listen, young man, and I will justify the advice you scoffed off -- and you best heed it in your own affairs, so that you'll find Jim's release, and not Jack's crotchety glum! `Go home and apologize' is the only answer that will matter to a caring spouse, whether it be husband or wife." "Look at your own dire straits, lad. Do you recall how you happened to be walking these streets this night? Same matter as John's, was it not? Of course it was! And can you remember what first got your dander up? Can you?" "Yes." "And what was it?" "You told me I started the argument," I replied. "No! I told you that what started the spat didn't matter! And I also told you she paid you a kindness by sending you on your way. Don't you see? I can tell the dear sweet girl loves you, or she couldn't have let you go out and change your mind -- or to make it up, whichever." Ben paused to swig his beer, then went on, "Wil, you told me yourself that the weather had got you irked, and she saw she could do precious little to soothe or please. You took her advice and went out into the night; a bit of a walk to vent excess energy, a nip of spirits to sweat out the ire -- and she may well suspect you to be discussing it with the likes of me." Again he paused to quaff his beer. "Preaching is a thirsty business!" (He took one more swig for good measure.) "William, I can tell you this: When you get home, with the stench of fine ale on your breath and the scent of another woman on your clothing, you'll have plenty to remind you why you're sorry." The sudden realization that Eva had pressed her luscious perfumed self square in the middle of my clothing hit me like a lightning bolt, and I'm sure that it showed, because Jim started laughing once again. "Oh, now son, don't be afraid! We haven't set you up for a fall, and the misses won't kill you straight off! Ask Jim here about my advice; he'll tell you of its worth." "It's true," he chortled with a great grin. "Women are wiser than men because they know less and understand more -- it's a fact! She will know that you feel like a fool, and if you admit it, you'll be home free!" (I first looked at him, and then at Ben, then looked once again to Jim as if to say, `promise?') "Trust us, Wil-boy! This man knows his women." "But, I still don't understand why John left in such a huff -- or why you were hysterical!" "John hates to admit when he's wrong," resigned Jim. "As he often is," added Ben, "and we know his dear Dolly dearly loves to be reminded of her right action in his care." "It drives him to lunacy!" Jim exclaimed as he began laughing once again. "And Jimmy's laughter should tell you that the same matter still causes him distress. Laughter is a release, my boy! We men-folk are taught to avoid sobbing in public, where a lady's tears are well accepted. And the ladies learn quite the opposite -- it's a queer, simple difference between the two! But don't muddy the waters, or you'll pay a damning price!" "Muddy the waters? How?" Ben reached into his pocket and drew out the key to the front door and slid it across the table to me. "Go home and apologize for your ill temper, and remember that penitence is good for the soul. If you feel remorseful of your devilish fury and it aches your stomach, let your tears sog her frock; and accept it that she does her best for you. Tell her you've been foolish, and ask her how she knew -- and thank the lovely girl whether she tells you her intuitions or not!" "Just one other thing," Jim toned, devoid of snigger or smile, "don't laugh. You have my word on that!" Ben seemed just as sober, and added nothing but a nod. I stood up, pocketed the key, downed the last of my brew, and bid them ado. * * * All the way home that night, I thought about it. I considered giving her reasons, but thought better of them because none could serve as more than a feeble excuse. Stepping in the door, I found her sitting by the window, swaying in her rocking chair and looking worried. Straight off, I found myself apologizing for being such a bastard and taking out my bad temper on her. I confessed that I was childish, and that I didn't know what was best for me. And all during my admissions, I had the gnawing childish monster of shame, and fear, and foolish pride struggling to claw his way up and out of my belly. And when, at last, he found release, bled from my eyes in a great torrent of tears, she was careful to wipe his ugliness and misery well off my cheeks, and rock me in her arms until he was gone. I had forgotten when first my lover saw me crying, but I remembered it just now . . . and I think our closest moments have been when we both shared a cry . . . . Laughter among friends can serve to entertain and convey jitters, but tears shared among loved ones wash away the grief we carry in our souls . . . women know this almost instinctively, but we little boys have to learn it over and over again till . . . . As to the pub, I can only tell you this: if she detected the telltale signs of drink or debauchery, she never mentioned them, and we both lost track of time that night. Upon the next day's dawning, I seriously doubted that the place even existed -- that is, until the key fell from my pocket and onto the floor. Looking much like a fob, I have attached it to my pocketwatch for safe keeping, and will visit there again . . . that next night, when the master sends the boy in me out to play. # # # Copyright 1994 D. M. Hanna ------------------------------------------------------------------------- Don, residing in NW PA and originally from Ohio, has decided to focus on witing for his soul income. He enjoys writing both SF as well as main- stream short stories. He has a novel in progress, and when taking a break, works on his shorts. You will see more of his work in RUNE'S RAG. ==========================================================================