In the chronology of events in the X-Files Universe, this story takes place after "Our Town" but before "Anasazi" and is intended as a "fix" for those of us struggling through this long, cruel summer. DISCLAIMER: Mulder and Scully are lovingly borrowed from Chris Carter and Ten Thirteen Productions and no copyright infringement is intended. So there. THANKS to: Gerri, who was kind enough to post this for me; Tricia, Celtic goddess and editor extraordinaire; Amy, who cheered me on; and John, story consultant and provider of mocaccinos. Please direct all comments (and I *do* want to hear them!) to me, the author, at 75271.3116@compuserve.com A Little Knowledge (1a/7) **************************** by Patti Murphy Had she known what it contained and where it would lead, Scully would have been even more annoyed with Mulder when he dropped the computer disk on her desk at quarter to five that Friday afternoon. "What's this?" she asked, picking up the little blue diskette. "Some light reading for the weekend," Mulder said. She frowned at him. "Mulder," she said. "Gotta run, Scully. There's a guy at the Smithsonian giving a talk on repressed memory syndrome and alien abductees," he said, as he threw on his suit jacket. "But we have to finish the field report on the Chaco murders in Arkansas," she protested. "Skinner is asking for it." "Can't it wait until Monday?" Mulder asked. He had turned off his desk lamp and was edging towards the door. "Mulder," she said, with increasing menace in her voice. "We can whip them off first thing Monday morning, O.K.?" He had his trenchcoat in his hands now and she knew she wasn't going to be able to stop him. "Have a good weekend, Scully, and take a look at what's on that disk." "Mulder!" The door slammed and he was gone. She tossed her pen down on the pile of paperwork in front of her and sighed in frustration. The disk sat on the edge of her desk blotter, taunting her. She looked at her watch and sighed again. She needed a weekend off or she was going to lose it completely. She fumed silently for a few minutes, then decided that she was going home. To hell with it. She got up abruptly, stuffed several files into her briefcase, got her coat and was at the door when she remembered the disk. She went back to her desk, grabbed it and dropped it in the outside pocket of her briefcase. She would look at it later. Much later. Scully tilted her face to the sun and took a deep breath, soaking up the musky smell of damp earth. She closed her eyes and pushed all thoughts of Mulder and work from her mind. Nothing but this park and this bench and this intoxicating sunshine. It was a spring sort of sunshine, warm and bright, but still a little tentative, almost as if the sun knew that it might have to depart suddenly, should the lurking shadows of winter decide to return. Her mountain bike leaned against the bench where she sat. It was the dark green of an MG, the closest she'd ever get to owning a British sports car on a Department of Justice salary. So far, it had been the perfect weekend. She'd slept late and then read the paper on the couch with a second cup of coffee. She'd met a friend for lunch, then had browsed through bookstores, returning home in time for a bike ride. Another day of this and she might start to feel like herself again. Her legs felt heavy and tired from the cycling. She hadn't been exercising very much lately and she could feel the lack of it. Working out was always the first thing to go when things got busy, and she knew she couldn't afford to let that happen. She had to stay in shape, if for no other reason than to keep up with Mulder. He was a foot taller than she was, and there were days when Scully was certain that every inch of that foot was in his legs, because she constantly caught herself running to keep up with his long stride. That had happened a lot this week. They had been so snowed under with work, and Mulder had been restless and more disorganized than usual, flitting from one case to another, throwing out ridiculous and far-fetched theories, expecting her to race along behind him, holding everything together, keeping Skinner at bay with her field reports. She realized she was clenching her jaw. She took a deep breath, let it out slowly. She wasn't going to think about work. A man in spandex bicycle shorts lurched by on roller blades. He started to teeter dangerously right in front of the bench where she sat, and Scully reflexively stuck out an arm to catch him. At the last moment, in defiance of several laws of physics, he regained his balance and righted himself. Their eyes met and the man blushed a deep crimson. He was tall and lanky, but not in a gangly sort of way, and Scully guessed that he was about her age. His eyes were the gentle blue of the ocean on a calm day. He was smiling at her now, with that look that people get when they see something that they like. Scully couldn't remember the last time she'd seen that look in someone's eyes. "Good thing I bought the helmet, too," he said, still blushing. "I think I'm going to need it." Scully smiled at him, wondering if the dark tint of her sunglasses would disguise the movement of her eyes enough for her to check out his legs. Probably not. "That was a nice recovery," she said aloud. He laughed a bit, looked down at his roller blades. When he looked up, his eyes moved up her body in a shy little glance. When they reached her face, his smile was even wider, the admiration evident now. "You ever try these?" he asked. She shook her head. "I don't like stitches much," she said. His laugh was genuine and lit up his face. For a few moments, he stood there, smiling and looking at her. Finally, he whipped off a glove and stuck out his hand. "I'm Peter," he said. Scully took his hand. Firm grip, not too firm, warm soft skin. He had a lot of freckles. "Dana," she said. "Dana," he repeated, and he looked at her as if he was memorizing her face. He released her hand, straightened up, and looked around the park, searching for the next right thing to say. His eyes stopped on her bicycle. "Your bike looks new. Are you just breaking it in?" "I've had it for a while, actually," she heard herself say. "I don't ride it very often." Ask him something, she thought, anything. Just keep him talking. He looked toward the playground, and she could see that he was scrambling to think of something to say, too. A little pause, his gaze lingering on the parents pushing children on the swings and then he was putting his glove back on. "Well, it was nice meeting you, Dana," he said. "Maybe we'll run into each other again." She nodded. "Yeah, maybe we will." He gave her a last smile then turned and rolled off down the asphalt bike path. Scully watched him skate away, until he was out of sight, then sighed and shook her head. "I've got to get a life," she said out loud as she wearily got to her feet. The lunch hour racket in the deli was louder than usual. Or maybe it was just her damn headache. It was the third headache of the week -- actually it was the third day of the headache that had started on Monday morning -- and she didn't need to be a doctor to figure out what the cause was. The cause was standing at the counter ordering their sandwiches, his usual mild expression in place. Scully massaged her temples, trying to loosen the half- nelson of pain around her head. Mulder must have sensed how close she was to throttling him this morning because he had stopped in the middle of a very technical explanation of genital excision in cattle mutilations and had said: "Hey, Scully, how about lunch? My treat." This was remarkable because when he was on a case, Mulder often lost sight of such trivial matters as meals. But it was all the more remarkable because as far as Scully knew, Mulder never had any money with him. There was only one explanation for such unusual behaviour -- she must look as lousy as she felt, bad enough for him to notice and be worried. Great. Now he'd start to hover. She reached for her briefcase, started fishing through it for the bottle of Advil that she always kept there. She groped around, headache thudding against her forehead with each heartbeat, and tried to calculate how many of those little brown pills she'd taken since Monday. She was up to fourteen before she located the bottle. Her medical training kicked in and she remembered all the harmful effects of such a high dose of ibuprofen. She quickly concluded that none of the side effects could be as bad as this headache, and besides, she had too much work to do. She popped two pills into her mouth and swallowed. As usual, they had ended up at Mulder's favourite lunch place, a cramped, noisy little deli with rickety tables and faded photos of D.C.'s various sports teams in frames that were bolted to the walls. Scully always felt like she should wipe off the chair before she sat down, but Mulder had strong-armed her into going there, and she had capitulated without much of a fight. Her head hurt too much to argue and after all, he was paying. She checked to see where Mulder was in line -- maybe food would help. He was at the counter now, standing there with his hands in his pockets, staring off into space, no doubt thinking up some outrageous theory to torment her with. Deep down, she knew that he didn't do it on purpose. It was just the way he was. But it got so frustrating sometimes, chasing after him, reigning him in, trying to reason with him while he made ridiculous leaps of logic, like an acrobat taking a sharp turn off the high wire. She smiled a bit at the image of Mulder in free fall. That's what she was...Mulder's net. And lately, something about that rankled. She rubbed her forehead wearily. Better not to think about it right now. It was going to be a long enough day without adding psychoanalysis to the agenda. She pulled a file from her briefcase, flipped it open and tried to concentrate around her headache. She had struggled through the same paragraph twice when suddenly Mulder was at the table, hands full of paper- wrapped sandwiches and drinks. "Turkey on whole wheat, mayo on the side, and grapefruit juice," he said, putting the appropriate items in front of her. "You didn't specify so I had them toss on some sprouty things, too." He ripped open a bag of potato chips with his teeth as he seated himself at the tiny table. Scully slid the papers back into the folder and returned them to her briefcase. By the time she had unwrapped her sandwich, Mulder had cracked open his soda and was washing down a mouthful of pastrami on rye. She glanced at his lunch and fought the urge to roll her eyes. "Didn't they ever teach you about the food groups, Mulder?" she asked. "I must have been sick that day." He popped another chip in his mouth, watched her fuss with her sandwich. "Do you want your pickle?" Scully shook her head as she chewed and motioned for him to take it. They ate in silence for a few moments. "Did you have a chance to look at the files on that disk I gave you Friday?" he asked. Scully noticed how much attention he was paying to rebuilding his sandwich which had collapsed in his hands after the last bite. She also heard the studied casualness in his voice and wondered what exactly she was being set up for. "There were over five hundred," she replied. "I read about fifty of them." "And?" he asked. "And..." She dragged the syllable out. "I don't know what I was supposed to be looking for. They looked like a random sample of medical files of people who had died around 1970." "You didn't find anything suspicious?" She shook her head, sipped her juice. "Was I supposed to?" Mulder chewed thoughtfully for a moment. "I couldn't find anything unusual, either," he said, after he'd swallowed. "Wait a minute. I don't get it," Scully said. "If there's nothing unusual in these files, why do we have them?" "That's what we need to find out." He was concentrating too hard on his sandwich. Scully suddenly saw the missing piece. An eyebrow lifted. "Mulder, where did you get those files?" Mulder took a swig of soda, then methodically wiped his hands with a paper napkin. "My anonymous contact gave them to me." She put her sandwich down and sat back in her chair, arms crossed. "Your new Deep Throat contact?" she asked. Mulder nodded, nibbling tentatively at his sandwich, watching the storm clouds gather in his partner's face. "The same man who knew what kind of danger you were in, but refused to help me find you when you were alone and injured on a polar ice cap?" Mulder noticed again how her eyes cooled to a pale grey when she was angry. He considered mentioning it, then decided it was probably not the best time. He gulped down some more soda and continued eating. When he didn't respond, she said, "You could have died, Mulder and he was going to let you." There were sharp edges to every word. "He wouldn't have given me these files if they weren't important," Mulder said. She leaned forward, pale eyes ablaze. "Do you remember the last time a contact of yours handed you a tip like this, with nothing to go on? Do you remember Purity Control, Mulder?" He met her gaze, then lowered his eyes, nodding imperceptibly. When he looked up again, his expression was stony, unreadable. "My contact died for giving us Purity Control," he said. "And nearly took you with him," she said, "and lied to you at least once before, that we know of." "He was in a very delicate position, Scully." "Delicate position? The man admits that he manipulated you, nearly gets you killed and you're worried about his delicate position?" Mulder started to speak, then quickly shut his mouth. They sat in charged silence for a few moments. "O.K., O.K.," she said tersely, raising a hand to signal a truce. She sighed heavily and ran her hand across her forehead and through her hair. If only her head would explode and get it over with. She regarded Mulder for a few seconds. "Did it ever occur to you," she said, "that this Mr. X, whoever he is, might really be playing for the other side?" A suggestion of a smile rested on Mulder's lips. "And you call me paranoid?" "Dammit Mulder, I'm serious," she said, slamming her hand on the table. Her bottle of juice jumped. "He's an anonymous informant, Scully. He risks exposing himself every time he passes something on to me. It's not like I can ask him for letters of reference." She closed her eyes and leaned forward, letting her head rest on the palms of her hands. The noise in the deli closed in around her, made her feel dizzy. "I can't just walk away every time things might get dangerous," he said. "You know that's not what I'm saying," she said. "Then what are you saying, Scully? What do you want me to do?" Impatience and anger mingled in his voice. She lifted her head, slowly, opened her eyes and gave him an icy look. "I want you to be careful, Mulder, because one of these days, I'm not going to be there to catch you," she said. She reached for her briefcase and got to her feet. "I have things to do. I'll see you later." She strode off before he could reply, making her way through the crowded tables, toward the door. She knew that by the time she reached the sidewalk, she would feel like an idiot for behaving this way, but she didn't care. At that precise moment, all that mattered was a deep breath of fresh air and getting away from Mulder. She had a hand on the door and was pushing it open when she heard her name being called over the noise. A strange voice, not Mulder. She turned instinctively and looked up into a hopeful smile. "I'm not sure if you remember me..." Soft blue eyes. The park. Roller blade guy. She remembered. "We met at the park the other day," he continued, "uh,...on the weekend? I'm..." "Peter." She spoke it before she could stop herself. He exhaled audibly, looking relieved as he nodded. She shifted her briefcase to shake hands with him. "I didn't know if you'd recognize me without the helmet," he said. Scully felt herself smile, despite the flush of anger that still coloured her cheeks. She took a deep breath to steady herself. "Is everything all right?" he asked. "You look a little upset." "Oh, I'm fine, really," she said. There was something about his eyes, a gentleness that drew her in, made her want to stand there and just look at him. She took in his dark suit, tasteful tie, mentally trying to change gears. "Do you work around here?" she asked. "I'm a reporter, for the Post," he replied. "I'm on the hill today, doing some research for a story. How about you?" "I'm with the Bureau," she said, waving her hand in the general direction of Pennsylvania and Ninth. "Wow. I'll bet that's a lot more interesting than reading bills about lobster quotas, which is what I spent the morning doing," he said. "Oh, it's interesting," she said. She thought about Mulder sitting back at the table. "Some days it's a little too interesting, actually." "I suppose you're on your way back to work," he said. "Lots of bad guys to catch?" She smiled. "And never enough time. You know how it is." He stood there, smiling down at her, clearly enjoying what he was seeing. Scully suddenly wondered what it would feel like to have his arms around her. She drifted on that thought for a moment, until she realized that he was saying something. "I guess I should be getting back, too. You never know when there might be important lobster news breaking, and if I wasn't there to cover it, I could miss out on my shot at the Pulitzer." "It was nice running into you again," Scully said. "Look, if you're not able to, I understand," he said, "but,...I'm going to kick myself later if I don't ask....Do you think we could have lunch together sometime?" He looked more than a little nervous. "I'd like that," she said. He brightened. "How about tomorrow?" "Sounds good." They made arrangements to meet and exchanged cards out on the sidewalk. His card declared him to be Peter O'Hara, reporter for the Washington Post. "Well, you'd better get back to those bad guys," he said, with a grin. "And you'd better get back to those lobsters." His grin blossomed into a smile. "I'm glad we bumped into each other again." "Me, too. I'll see you tomorrow." "Bye." Scully had walked two blocks before she realized that her headache was beginning to feel better. cont.